The FaLLeN

This morning i woke up.. i guess it was an ordinary day... and as it went a few minutes after that, yeah... It was and ordinary day for me.. until i read something.. I felt nothing.. I felt so down, my ears were hot, my mind was stolen from someone else, i lost my confidence, i lost my faith, i lost who i am... i tried to change, but i failed.. I need some Support, i need some truth.. why am i feeling this, please reveal me the truth.. I'm not being myself, for who i am, for what i do, for what i believe in. Again, I tried to be tough, like was, before this happen.. Sound strange? Yeah.. Its secret.. Its feeling.. Its happening.. Feel Curious about it? Read Some more... Read Some More..

It Happened within 2 seconds when i read and felt:" Oh! I've Seen This Before!, I Thought That.. Ugh..~" And i Started to melt down, falling from the top of the iceberg, into and open icy cold freezing hypothermic Sea. It's A feeling that i Felt I was the one... the choosen one to fall.. The choosen one to be "cut" in the chest with an axe.. A wound that never gonna be cured..

Before I came here, i Put ONE STATEMENT in my head.. And I disobeyed My own rule.. And I know, I just realized, That i am not that strong that i thought i was. I'm Down cause of what i do.. But I still know the way out of this. I can Still Try to pick myself Out.. Swim out of the icy cold sea.. with one hope, one dignity, one pride and followed by ONE word and ONE word only. "IGNORE"

But then again.. I'm not that type of human that wants to Ignore this. I'm the type who care about this..

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To Be Continue..

ThE SaHuR

Morning Guys :)

Guess This is the 11th of Ramadhan.. I Lost Count -.-" But Nvmnd... Its a Cold Morning... Still Dusk... COld, Very cold.... At 4.20Am my HP rang... Although I set My Alarm @ 4am, I Heard it @ around 4.20 Maybe..Can't Remember.. Deep Sleep huh ^^, Well, I woke up then, Saw My HP status.. It was 3 Miss Calls and 2 Msgs.. My MuM tried to call me and wake me Up.. And My GF sent a MSG, asking me To Eat Sahur ^^, How Sweet.. Two Of My lOVED ones care About Me.. ^^, I miss Them ^^,

Well, For Today's Sahur, I ate Lee Fah Mee, Abalone Flavour(oh, took me about 5 seconds to think of the word flavour), and Chipsmore.. ^^, AND, 3 Kurma's.. I Like It.. ^^, Although I Have to drink Plain water.. But Its Ok.. This is What We Call Experience Living Without Ur Family Beside You and Away From "Spoonfeeding".

I Miss Home~~ =)(",)
Till Then.. Arigatou~
-Out-
5.00AM

ThE BeginNing..

HyE~ hehe... This is the 1st time im writing a blog... although i heard about it last few years.. nvr got the interest to make one.. BUT, today my sis asked me to make one just coz i can read her's.. nvmnd, i'll get use to this 'thing'. Felt awkward writing these things.. LMFAO..

I'll just start telling about myself..
Born in Lutong, Miri, Sarawak.. =.="
Graduated from LUGOSS
Currently Studying @ UNIMAS taking Planning & Development =)

Guess Thats all i can write for now.. HaHa..