Friday, December 24, 2010

WoRdS FroM The HeArT aS ThE MouTh Can'T Speak

A big crowd standing in front me,
Most of them are standing beside me,
It's nice to see them laughing,
Tagging along,
Doing Things Together,
Teaming Up,
I feel happy for them,
Hell, I wish they keep on upgrading and success more and more,
But when I looked at myself,
I'm not a part of them,
Being Left out alone,
Being the only thrash under a Christmas tree,
I can't be part of them,
Some voices told me to leave the crowd and join them,
But the they are my friends,
I can't just left them,
I felt like joining,
But I feel not invited,
I wanted to leave because in this case,
My happiness counts also.

I need something to cheer me up,
Especially in these times,
I wish I could be like them,
But I can't,
Instead I thank God for what I have,
I appreciate what I have,
Right now,
This very second,
I wanted to join them,
Yea they do care about me,
They are like part of my family,
I confess,
I dare to tell them,
"Hey Guys? I need some company here..",
They came,
They Cheered me up,
Made me smile again,
But sometimes,
Its just sad to feel that their are not arnd,
I don't want to be left alone,
I don't want to be happy just myself,
I wish to share it with others,
Being happy together is the best thing in the world,
I'm numb when I dont get that,

Advice is all I need,
And some attention,
People do deserve attention,
Not too much,
A little bit would do,
I gave commitments to them,
But I don't receive anything,
I'm not asking for anything as return,
But wouldn't it be nice if you are reward for a commitment You made?
I'm sure You who read this would thought the same,
We are humans,
We are the same in some ways,
In this case,
I'm sure we ARE the same,
Giving but not receiving,
It's just harsh,
Sometimes I feel like leaving the crowd,
But they still give support,
Other voices called me to them,
They are so nice to me,
Should I go?
Or should I stay?

It's complicated.
I'm sorry,
I can't make any decisions,
Not Right now,
I wanted to leave,
And I wanted to stay,
I'm sorry,,,,,,,,
I can't take a bow....
I just can't.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

TiMe GoEs By ToO FaSt

Hola! hahaha~ how u guys doinn??? :) im good here.. doing well.. so far so good.. =) my 1st sem results are out, i guess... a few days ago? 5 days ago maybe.. ahahah.. yeah, i passed all of my subjects, ^^V cheers~ but not really happy with the pointer, oh well.. guess i'll just move on with it ^^V NEED SOME IMMEDIATE IMPROVEMENT!  ^^V wish me luck for 2nd sem.. =)

aaahhh... this afternoon, me and the Ba™aN crew went to buy our Futsal jerseys.. ouyeah.. Jerseys!! sigh, went through alot... and really tired.. just to search for the "right" size, if u know what im saying.. = =" soo~~~~ yeap, we bought them.. heheh.. gonna get ready for the upcoming event... Piala Ambang 2011 they call it.. held at Indoor Stadium Miri.. fuh.. nabes2.. hahaa.. my 1st big tournament.. =p

ermm ermm ermm... nothing much to story actually.. nothing much going on.. xkan la mok crita tiap2 hari aku main bola kat blkng kedey kan~~ hahaha.. but yeah, as a preparation, i did some work outs, some trainings, some skills polishing... main kat blkng kedey jak.. sakit ler jatuh the other day = =" twice.. WTF! but yeah, im ok~ lol.. still going strong.. now, ermm.. guess im kinda injured, overstretch my muscle ler.. need some rest.. hahah.. but, xdpt dmanjak gilak eh.. need to push to the limit ler.. got 2 more weeks to the event.. eee.. >,< idk if im fit enuff... sighh... anyways~~~

arrhh.. boring tahap gaban.. yala nulis blog tok.. hahaha... sighh.. idk what else to do.. astro xda = =" wanna watch football time cuti tok pun xdpt.. sighh..... "heavy sighh" wanna watch streaming? huhu... clash connection with my online game plak... mistake ehh.. = =" blablabla.. i got nothing more to write..

chow3x.. =)